Today kind of sucked. I just reallt didnt feel like talking all day and I know alex got annoyed with me quite a few times but I just didnt have anything to say. I faked it towards the end of the day but I feel worse now. I wish I could "take the phone off the hook and disappear for awhile", but I have too much to do. I didnt even bring my cell phone to school today. I dont know I just feel horrible I dont know why. Maybe I'l just spend the night reading, maybe watching a movie, it dosent even really matter. I am planning something tommorow so I have to write a letter to someone about it. Other then that this week seems completely pointless and meaningless, but dosent everything? Thats all for now.
Bye

Well, I havent written in awhile but alot has happened. I am going to prom with alex and I really love my dress. Its dark blue and thats all I can say because he isent going to see it till the day of prom. Me and kay are going to get her dress next weekend and will get our nails done before prom. Then on the day of prom we are getting our hair done at 1:30 by a lady names karan or something, apparently she is really good. She did my aunts hair and her brides maids hair on her wedding day and they all came out pretty beautiful. Then we are gonna all meet at my house at like 3, me kay mega and jackie, and get dressed. All the guys can meet at my house at like four, and my mom (who is taking the day off from work) and Alex's mom can drive us to the beach then to la grange for pictures. Then we leave at like 6:15 for Saint James! We will probally hit traiff so we have to leave early. I am so excited. Me Alex and his mom are going to get his tuex on saturday, yes alex is getting dressed up. Thats really all about prom for now.
Other then prom nothing is really new. I still havent written anything in like forever. Its not that I cant think of anything to write, I can every easily just write, I just dont want to. I got a good report card, I though I was going to get introble for it. I got a 100 in my ap class without the 12 points added. I made honor roll again, my goal is to get a 95 next quater, but i know i wont. I have been hating psychology though, I absolutely hate kremer, shes out of her mind. She is so annoying, she made me take a quiz on who said what on a day I missed. How am i supposed to know what people said when I was on a feild trip? What ever. I am actully starting to get more comfortable in carbs class, the guys arent bad. Speaking of guys, Chris seems upset lately and I cant figure out why. He might be going to Junior Banquet but he dosent know who to ask. Chris has been really diffrent to me sience we had a talk about college and stuff, Im not sure why. I really miss him. Nothing else is new though. Thats all I really have to say.

Buhbyes♥

Ps. Maybe poetry tommorow?

I am not 100% sure what to put here.. or for that matter any bit sure. Things have been changing alot... some good some bad, my lifes kinda like fever pitch lately. I am still dating Alex, and on tuesday it will be 7 months. Our relationship has changed alot. Robotics has been absolutely insane, we are working every single day, the good thing about that is that most of the guys on the team are like family now. That's been kinda confusing in alot of way. I'v been really busy lately and I have been writing almost everyday. Alot of what I write absolutely sucks but o well.. Thats all for now... tata♥♥♥

Alot has changed this summer and the beggining of the year. I dont know if i am to happy about that or sad, some for the better some for the worse. but in the end its all change, iv never been one to like change, its drove me down diffrent roads some which i shouldnt have followed. iv gotten my life fucked up by diffrent people one of them being me. iv done things that were insane to turn back from and i had to all at the same time. i proved more to myself then i thought possible. i havent changed in the eyes of most, but most do not see within. im not who i was, i dont know why i changed, i know who changed me. im not sure that my mind still understands. my thoughs might but my mind as a whole is somewhere out there and not coming back. most of all, i get labeled alot. the girl with the guys, the teck girl, the crazy girl, the sencible girl, the weird girl, but to be 100% honest I dont know what kind of girl I am.... I dont think i want to know, i think me finding out must be my fate, fate happens for a reason and thats a chain reaction, by the time i die, ill know and i dont want to rush that, cause right now im just a girl, no desribing there. i am who i am and i hate when people say i am who i am and i always will be, cause people always change, no one ever stays the same person, its like halloween, masks makeup and costumes but when we put them on we are so diffrent but we dont change back all the time, its sometimes like halloween all year till the next halloween, i dont want to be the same person forever, i want to live and learn and have fate control it. cause what is supposed to happen will happen in one way or another...<3<3<3

Uhhh... so my boyfriend is pretty much extremley over protective... we were standing out front of the school and this kid jason was saying stuff about me, sexual stuff, and my boyfriend got pissed, so he punches him in the face... i dont know what happened but then jason was on him then jason goes to punch him and misses the my boyfriend punches him once more, then jason and his friend leave, while jason starts to cry... so the next day everyone thinks jason beat the crap out of my boyfriend and wont leave me alone... blah... guys are suck fucking jerks and of course no one asks or wonders WHY alex hit him... then when i told them they finally shut up for alittle... blah... i wish i could kill jason myself... then in science he does more shit... shut boys...